Once And For All

Gal. 2:20 “I have been crucified with Christ.  It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.”

I don’t know about you all, but these four weeks of staying home and limited communication with others has given a lot of time to think and pray and read my Bible.  And I feel like I’ve had every emotion a person can have.  Fear, thankfulness, doubt, empathy, confusion, and impatience… just to name a few.  I wish I could say that my faith has been perfect and I’ve never stumbled… but I can’t say that and be honest.

I’ve been doing a Lent Bible plan, and finished it last night (as I write this), and someone asked me what I had learned and my first response was that I’m really selfish.  I’ve been asking God to fix things instead of really seeking His glory.  I keep desiring “normal,” but that’s not living a crucified life.  “Oh let this be, where I die, my Lord with Thee, crucified. Be lifted high, as my kingdoms fall.  Once and for all.” “Normal” is my kingdom that needs to fall.  My desires to have things my way, my protection, my loves.

I wish that I could say I have it all together now and have figured this all out, but I haven’t.  I am taking one day at a time though, and asking God: “What does it look like, today, for me to lay down my SELF?” I pray we all can do that.


Phil. 3:12 “Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me His own.”